life (n.) - as a consequence of prolonged
the fresh-faced, hard-bodied 20 year old stallion has 2 lists:
- the qualities that she MUST have in a potential mate
- the sexual acts that she WILL NOT engage in because
those lists, long and non-negotiable at first, shrink as father time takes a toll on once perky breasts and aspirations of millionaire dreamjob status become the hardened reality of underpaid, overworked, check-to-check work. the man that she dates eventually looks nothing like the Prince Charming of that Oprah-inspired list, and more like the unemployed, lazy, disrespectful bastard sitting on the couch when she comes home. straight forward sex in a bed becomes something totally different (i digress for the sake of preserving some of my secrets ;-))
while i've always been a bit of an exhibitionist, quite the voyeur, and an all out freak, my list of standards seems to be trending upwards. i've reached a point where i care enough about your feelings to tell u the truth, "i don't feel like you're good enough for me" ...it's not a slight towards you. you may be a wonderfully moral, attractive, kitchen throwing, bed breaking freak, but you're not what i'm looking for and i REFUSE to settle...
like Jermaine said, "don't take it personal, take the bitter with the sweet"... i'm just of the thought that the woman who is good enough for me should inspire me, not to get my lazy ass up off the couch, but to take my already productive ass to new heights. she should move me sexually, not in a way that leaves me wondering if i could fuck her sister and get away with it, but in a way that has me catching cramps coming up with new and innovative ways to make her cum harder, even after the initial lust has faded. she should care to stroke my ego, even as i protect her heart. she should love me, even as i finally understand how to love her...
there is no other way. no substitute
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