Savage Life

"somebody real is hard to find, somebody worth all your time. somebody who can tell you the truth, someone who loves you for you. someone who knows all of your flaws and doesn't impose, try to control them. let's you be free, doesn't deceive. gives you a chance to believe, believe in something... is that too much???" -Tink

i follow a guy on Facebook, Wayne Colley, calls himself Kuntry Wayne. he makes funny little selfie type videos in different situations. on one such video, he was making fun of himself getting caught listening to a "girl" song by his brother. me being me, i never got to the part where he got caught 'cause i was too busy diggin' the tune, tryna open google and shazam, going over to the keyboard, and generally having an impromptu jam session with myself, by myself, for myself... enough about me, let's talk about... errr... me

CONFESSION: i have operated as if my love life was outside of God's sight, doing who i wanted, when i wanted, where i wanted; all the while expecting that every aspect of my life (relationships included) would continue to be blessed. how ridiculous is it that i was both surprised and disgusted when i got sh!tted on less than spectacular results. as whacked out as she is at times, Lauryn Hill said it best; "...it could all be so simple, but you'd rather make it hard"

so... having identified and diagnosed a problem, i set about traveling the road to solution. that consisted of making it my earnest prayer that what i had paid lip service to (wanting to be in an outstanding marriage) became something that i, God-willing, took steps toward accomplishing. imagine my surprise when the results came back that i, he of ever-growing faith, "good" hair, crazy wit, above average "abilities" wink wink, and strong family values, was most of the problem 0_o

long story medium, i've been working on me. He's been working in and on me. it is both my prayer and expectation that He is also working in and on the she...

time reveals all things... trust and believe -me

P.S. - i had a few other directions i could have taken that "lip service" blurb a couple of paragraphs ago, but i resisted ;-) ...prolly won't happen again